February 18, 2011

• Funny, I was going to write about how things in my life have been going pretty well.

  Well I found out my last grandparent (grandpa) died. I wasn’t close to him, but still. It definitely puts a damper on my “I’ve been kicking ass in my life” attitude.

  I’m still going to write about that.

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  Back up for a sec…

  so my week has been pretty uneventful, to say the least. Mostly it went by really slowly.

  I recently started working out everyday: lifting weights, doing cardio etc. I’m really happy that I’m getting back on track with being fit and active. My mom wants me to tell her how much weight I’ve lost, but I don’t care about that. I care about the fact that I’m happier (not to mention healthier) for exercising. I’m proud of myself for taking the initiative, among other things that I’ve done (taking 2 English classes and challenging myself with AP lit and 2 10 page papers, college stuff etc). It’s another thing I can be happy with myself for.

  I was kinda upset for awhile. I decided to see if my mood was linked to my sleep. Apparently it is. I’ve been consistently getting 8ish hours of sleep, and I find when I deviate from that (more so in the lesser direction) I’m cranky/irritable/easily upset/more negatively emotional.

  I’ve also kind of backed off from the Greg situation. I refuse to let anyone change me in the future. I change for myself. I change because I want to. If people don’t like who I am and all that….TOO BAD. I’m human, and I generally have good intentions so people who are crappy will just have to pop off (wow, I’m not ghetto at all…but that is amusing to say.)

  Oh, and I mentioned English before. We took a practice AP (well, the open response essay) in Lit today. I’m surprised. I felt like I did ok, but at the same time I’m really nervous that I got a really low grade :S. Either way, I guess I can say that I tried my best, right??

  I am really happy that I’ve been blessed with the English teachers I’ve had. My teacher for AP lit is so encouraging. I wanted to know what the deal was with the practice essay thing we took today. She gave me the AP practice book. She went over the test with me. I mean, I guess these things are to be expected since I joined her class in the middle of the year, but still. I just feel like I’m really being welcomed into something that is right up my alley and what I’ve wanted to be apart of. I feel like I am making up for all the time that I should have, could have etc. I don’t know. Even though I’m intimidated by all the smart people in the class…I’m happy that I am finally in the class. Better late than never…Anyway, bad tangent. My teacher basically encouraged me to take the AP and all that. I guess she wouldn’t have said that if she didn’t feel that I was capable. Things are weird like that, I guess. Too much rambling and not enough going onto other things.

  I have February/winter break this coming week, so it worked out well in a weird way that all this stuff is happening. I have a lot to do. I have to write some essays for a few local scholarships. I have to work on 2 art projects. I have to read a book and take quote notes on this book I found for my AP lit paper.

  It’ll be kind of overwhelming since my grandpa died and I’ll want to be with my dad, stepmom, and stepbrothers.

  I hope I figure this whole ordeal out. I definitely need to.

  I was hoping to go to a pilates class tomorrow but we’ll see what happens…especially since I screwed my bedtime up again by being up late again today. Oh well :S.

   

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